Oh, so you decide to grace us with your presence after a month of not posting...
Hello.
I have not posted for one month and one day. I have accepted that I must have lost what small audience I had.
There are several reasons (excuses) as to why I haven't posted.
Firstly, my computer broke. Secondly, it was Christmas and I was (kind of? ish?) busy. By busy, I don't mean doing anything productive. I mean sleeping and reading and attempting to spend time with family.
Also, between Boxing Day and New Year's Eve, I felt like shit. I knew I shouldn't be feeling like shit because I'd been given presents and had a good time but I couldn't help feeling that I didn't deserve any of it. On the night of Christmas day, I stayed awake until 3am staring at the ceiling of my cousin's bedroom and thinking about death. This doesn't make me deep or special.
I kept drafting post ideas i.e. 10 Reasons why I hate Christmas or My New Year Resolutions but the writing was extremely forced and not very good. Maybe my writing always seems forced and not very good.
Sorry, I went on a bit of a tangent *you know you've been doing too much trigonometry when the word 'tangent' gives you flashbacks and everything starts looking like surds or right angled triangles. Yesterday, Lithium gave Iodine some squares of chocolate with logos printed on them and Iodine asked why the chocolate was covered in square roots...*
Anyway, my third and most valid reason for not posting is I've been quite busy with school and choosing my GCSE subjects. Originally, I wanted to do Drama, Triple Science, Media and French but the option blocks wouldn't let me do that so now I think I'm going to do Drama, Triple Science, Media and PRE (Philosophy, Religion & Ethics). Maybe I'll swap Media or PRE for Geography. I'm not sure.
At first, I was pretty bummed about not getting to do what I wanted but now I'm kind of glad. If the option blocks had let me do my original choices then I wouldn't have thought about it too much but now that I don't get to do exactly what I wan't, I'm thinking about it a lot more. The forms have to be in by February 5th so I have about half a month more to think about it. It's parents evening tomorrow. Hopefully that'll make things clearer.
Anyway, I got motivated to start posting again after an English lesson where we were doing blogs. My English teacher asked if anyone had a blog. I didn't put my hand up, obviously, but she went on talking about how they were quite a big commitment and required a lot of upkeep. That lesson, I was feeling two things: I was sweating in my seat because one other person in my class knows about this- I didn't want them to bring it up to anyone. I was also feeling internal guilt because I knew that JustAnotherRadiumGirl* was sat unloved; festering and gathering proverbial dust in some deep, dark corner of the internet, never to be found by anyone because I don't even have a proper domain name.
Essentially, I started posting again because I was guilt tripped by my oblivious English teacher.
That will be all for today.
I'm sorry my life isn't more interesting.
Oh, wait! About a week ago, I discovered that I'm allergic to something in strawberry ice cream. I bought a cheap tub after school and then I got a really bad rash all over my body. Being an over dramatic hypochondriac, I thought I was dying. That was a fun experience. I've never liked strawberry ice cream thAT much but now I'm "allergic" to it, it's all I want to eat.
-Radium
*I'm starting to really hate the name JustAnotherRadiumGirl but I guess it's too late to change it now.
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