Disappointment and Beds

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Hello.
Recently, I've been feeling pretty crappy. For lots of reasons. 

At the moment, my mum is taking down my old bed. It's a bunk bed I've had since I was nine or ten (same time I got my room painted orange). Like the orange walls, I've kind of come to hate it. Ahh, ten year old me, what were you thinking? But I'm kind of sad that it's coming down. I always felt safe sleeping on the top bunk, knowing that the Beldam or that thing from Pan's Labyrinth couldn't get to me up there. I'm sleeping on my mattress on the floor for a week until my new bed arrives: 


Yeah, it's a pretty sexy bed, I know. Also, if you're wandering what "that thing from Pan's Labyrinth" is then it's this (I'm including this photo second as the first photo you upload is always the thumbnail for the post and I don't really want that to be what people first see). 


It's freaking terrifying but Pan's Labyrinth is a really good film, probably my favourite. I watched it last night and had weird dreams after- don't remember all of them but I distinctly remember drinking wine and the wine reforming into a grape in my mouth. Also, my room is being re-painted soon meaning that I've had to take all the posters and photos down off my walls which was depressing. My room just looks like an empty, orange shell with some furniture in. I've also had to remove most of the stuff from it. Within literally two minutes of packaging shit into boxes I found my buss pass (which I thought I'd lost), a crystal and my ipod. 

I'm hungry so I'm going to find food.
Bye. 

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